.one day.

one day he'll see things the way i do.

one day he will be so thankful i did everything the way i am.

one day he will understand why i get frustrated over the little things and handle the big things as patiently as i can.

one day.

so what if i get irritated when stays up late and complains about how tired he is.
so what if i get irritated when i see he spent 13 bucks at mickey d's.

so what if i understand when his car breaks down and he can't come up to see me.
so what if i understand when he can't make it to a doctor's appointment.

so what?

maybe i'm only seeing things the way i want to.
maybe i'm rejoicing that i'm not married.
maybe i'm realizing how not ready he is for all of this.
maybe i'm ready to do this alone.

maybe.

honestly, i'm not surprised he flips when i confront him about something i'm concerned about.

honestly, i don't care if he thinks i don't care. cause maybe i don't.
honestly, i'm making more sacrifices than he is.

honestly, i'm still sitting here hoping that one day he will wake up and all this will hit him in the face.

honestly.

but honestly, so what if its a maybe, maybe not, one day situation?

i'm committed to my child.

and no one can change that.

<3